Hello. I feel so bad about my English T.T

Because this is the first post so I'm going to say something about my blog. 

In the morning, I was boring because Im finding a Job in this time. I love English, and I love learn to English. But my English qualification is very low, you know? my listening skill is not good, my vocabulary is horribe and the most awful is my writting skill.You can see it in any word that I just have written

I felt so bad and I think I should be good right now. Of course, Im going to participate in any English course to rise it soon, but I think the self-study is the most important. Because I created this blog where I can pratice to supose for the self-study.

So I really hope anybody who can read my blog will help me fix my grammar, my tense and any my stupid mistake.